listen to me

Some days i wonder what if i wasnt here anymore, will someone remember me?, have u ever had the chance to live something and feel... feel something, pasion, anger, happiness, love, anything, and u`d love to tell at least someone, to share that feeling... but there`s no one there, everyone just take what the need from u (not material necessarily). They greet u and wish u luck, but, do they even listen to u, and if ur depressed, do they want to know? Leaves me to wonder, have I done the same? have a friend come and ask me for some time and i said, in a polite way of course, "no i dont want to get depressed as u"? I guess feelings are so vulnurable, so weak to change, sometimes u just like to pretend ur hard as a rock, while ur heart is just as tender as a marzipan. Kissing someone`s tears breaks ur heart, watching them go... has no description. Holding ur tears so that he wont notice ur so sad, ur so sad u want just to hold on to him and never let go... but ur life is more important, and so is his. we have to keep going, going and maybe one day u can stop and say "I had a good life" and u dont need anyone to hear it, do u? I think i will remember many people, not a lot, not even as many as people would like, but i know i will remember just the close ones that were with me on bad times and on good ones. And, answering my first question, i know of someone who will remember me; he might not be perfect, but at least im sure i`ll be in his heart, and be sure he will be in mine.