Erised on the wall, who`s the fairest of them all?

I wonder, is it too hard to just tell what u want? How can u live ur life without knowing what is it that u desire?, or knowing it, but dont accepting that u desire it.
Why cant u grasp the thought of wanting something? Is it because u can't get it? because people wont give it to u?
Why would someone think u wont be mature enough to understand their desire? I don't get it, it is just simple "I want to stay", and that's it, that doesn't mean u can do it, but at least people will consider ur sugestion, i think i get upset when people say they dont want to do something, but they dont mean it. It would be easier if one would just be honest and accept what comes, knowing people are considering one's request.
And when u confront them, asking them the reason for not telling what they want, they come up with tons of excuses, and they even dare to point "i told u i didn't want to" for goodness sake!! i don't believe how cinical that is.
But it gets worse, they dont say a thing!!, they dont explain u, they just keep quiet, making u even angrier, and they try to distract u, but ur too focused on, that every word that comes out of their mouth upsets u.
So, why cant they say it?, i think they`re afraid, maybe they should be, we all are; but why does the one that walks one step further is closer to his goal?
Well, and we dont end with that, maybe u have already grasp the idea of telling what u desire, do people understand it? "-Want a donnut? -no, thank u -u sure? - yes -so u want a donnut - i told u i dont, thank u -so u can have something in ur belly -no -they`re good, u even like them" how many times should i have said "no"? i had to walk out of the room so they would stop asking, they muyt`ve thought i was rude, but hey!! it looked like they didnt understand it.
Makes me wonder again, do i really do that? in everything in my life?
What if i had already told someone i wanted him?, what if i have said that i desire him? did i scare him away? is he coming back?
Why cant i say, i desire to meet something else, i desire to live something else, i desire to recollect my own experiences.
I guess that it is as difficult for me as for everyone else "breath and be brave"
Maybe the main problem is knowing that ur gambling, u can lose, u can win, who knows what the other person is feeling.
"being Happy alone is like the Pecuniary wealth, u feel good, but not as good as the philanthropist " quoting a nice friend i met some days ago. (hope he doesnt mind me using his words)
How about walking to the mirror asking him to be the happiest of them all, what would the mirror give u? Maybe he gives it to u everyday, maybe u dont need a magic mirror after all.